Learning to Long for More

Sunday I leave Nicaragua for a week.  I am so excited to have cleanness (not a word), no burning trash smell, good food, English, and Walmart....the list could go on.  But the point is that Sarah and I are stoked to go back to the states for even just these 7 days.  I've made out my list of must do's: Target, Asiago breakfast sandwich at Panera, Poncheros, Firehouse Subs (Florida!), STARBUCKS!, Kilwins (another Florida fav), driving, petting animals, drinking sink water, not getting whistled or kissed at, and sleeping without ants.
It's funny because everyone who is from the states or has ever been to the states is really excited for us.  My friend's fiance is Nicaraguan and doesn't really want to go to the states or live in the states.  He has known this his whole life and doesn't know the joys that are offered in the US.  (Note: I'm not implying the US is great and wonderful, it just has a lot more than Nicaragua)  She just tells him that it's better than Nicaragua but he likes his milk that makes me gag.  He likes where he's from and doesn't want anything different.  I feel like it's a lot of how I am.  I know where I am but I don't always believe that what God has ahead of me is better.  It's better to wait for something big than stay where I am or get little joys now when God promises Heavenly treasures.
As I said I've had a lot of time to read lately and have gotten really into a book by Elizabeth Elliot called Passion and Purity.  I have to say this book has not been what I thought it would be about!  I have learned so much and have actually seen my self in a lot of what she talks about in the book.  She doesn't only talk about physical purity but emotional purity.  Emotional purity or the Christian-ese term "guarding your heart" has always confused me.  What does it mean to guard your heart anyway?!?
A few years a really liked this guy and even though my close friends thought he might have an interest in me.  I thought I was again "guarding my heart" and I never pursued it...not even a little.  It wasn't until we were apart that I really realized how much that relationship (or whatever you want to call it) had hurt me.  There were so many times I thought about bringing it up, sending an email, or being like "WHAT IS THIS? What happened?"  One of the things Elizabeth Elliot talks about is how often we ask God to either give us what we long for or take that longing away.  What God tells us is "I want you to learn to long for something more"  I have to say this has been a hard learning experience and it's lasted way longer than I ever would have imagined.  And even though I am over him and have moved on I still think it's important for me to be pray that God will teach me and I will learn to long for something more than just this...just going home for a week...just Nicaragua...just the lima beans if I have the promise of an ice cream sundae...getting the drift of what I'm learning? :) (last one might have been a stretch)
I feel like being here has been a challenge for me spiritual but it's in these challenges that God is moving, teaching me, and molding me to be the woman of God he has created me to be and for that I am thankful.